Day 30: man...

man... i really got to stopp going far talking to grace... i meaann... i shouldnt be HER bestest friend.. thats what her BESTEST freinds are for.. regina especially.. but since the past months things have been rough between them...i just want to step in and heelp grace when she needs it... it jsut i go to far... i dont feel like my relationship with grace is strong enough for her to tell about her struggles she holds with life, and BOYS especially.. i shouldnt have asked her.. its jsut.. i want to be there for her... and be the best of friend i can be for her.. i dont mean too.. but huh... shes in deeep stuff i have to know of but... if she is willing to tell.. i am with open ears for her... but if not.. i TOTALLY understnad... but... i really hope is doing okay... the last BIG thing she told... "i think im giving up".... breaks my heart to hear one my CLOSEST freinds.. actaully...MY best friend...to see her fall like this...God pleassee help her father... bless every moment she moves and breathes... father show that there is hope and love her and provide for her through her every need... she needs all the help she needs :/

Day 29: i miss her.. :(

i wont get to see regina for the next 8 days... :( huh... i miss her... jealous of anything.. dam right i am... shes fricking going to PROM with this guy named john... man... i thought i d be the only one taking her to prom... why am i waiting for senior to do everything... i dunnooo im still going along with it.. so UNTIL SENIOR year...

i miss her a lot... shes the one person i look forward to seeing and being with every week .... hope this week goes by fast... :/

Day 28: YES FINALLY!!!

things are finnalyl fixed betweeen me and regina :) im soooo happppy! i was succch GIDDY MOOD today HAHAH! <3.... i did admit i liked her... but it wont change anything i know that for sure... i jsut have a feeling it wont... i dunnooo i didnt bother asking her if she liked me...i just didnt really care... haha im gladd our freindship is back in order... but grace.. man... shes has it rough... i knowww she is wondering why regina opened up to me and not her but.. dont worrry grace... it will all be fixed sooon....  i talked grace last night with regina.. i finally got to the bottomm of it with regina... and regina is going to talk to grace soooon and fix everything... I CANT WAIT TIL SHE DOES :D HAHAHA... finallyy things are getting back to the way it shoould be...

how bold of me... before i walked out the door after we talked... and looked back and just huggeddd regina knowing everyhting is finally fixed and none of this will hapenn anytime soon... i wasss really happpyy during that moment :)

Day 27: I think I've given up

im just done... haha... i dunno.. i dont relly care anymore.. like this whole thing with regina.... its nothing now.. ive beeeen normally.. ive been off in schooll. ihave been stepping it up lately.. i dunnoo... huh... can i last without talking to regina ever??... :/ who knowsss.. but i will during this journey... mmm:/ im worried for grace... i knooww she still cares A LOT about her relationship with regina... mmm i hope things works out for them tooo soon... im not use to seeing those two not commune, laugh together.. having iside jokes.. hearing nikcnames they created out loud.. esp.. batman.. and spiderman... haha but ... im concerned for grace.. she neeeds a best friend...soo yeah.. living life as it iss...

Day 26: not going my way....

well.... today didnt go as planned.. regina didnt even come to church today.. aparently she was sick :(... huh.. i wanted to talk to her today.. but i gave the day to grace... she needs it more than i do... apparently her talk with regina didnt go so well either.. based on her mood all day :/... man.. i really missed regina... when i sat down on the couch.. and i saw her walk down... huh..i really miss herr... she is so beyond amazing... mmmmm... i guess this predicament is dragiing even more longer... huh..... i forgot how wonderful regina is....this problem... has drawn me away from all this... huh... i miss her....

Day 25: this is it... this ends now...

i have to talk to her tomorrow... im reallyl nervous though.. huh.. but all ahas to end.. for the sake of grace and me...i miss her too much.. knowing that she is ignoring me becuase shes giving me to grace.. its ridicuolous.. huh... shes saddd... i know it.. i want to talk to her.. MAN UP ANDY!... this is it.. tomorrow.... talk to regina... gotta plan how i should do it tonight...

Day 24: what said is said...

misunderstandings.... i hate them... they can goo diee.... i actually thought regina was jealous of grace.. but knowing its the other way around.. its pretty embarassing..... she knows i like her... huh.. .wow...i didnt want any of this too happeen... i wanted a low key liking her.. but i guess she knowsss now... watever.. eff it... i dunno anymores....